in the midst

Somewhere I've seen a quote about being in the midst of a situation and not being able to see forward or backwards.  Pretend I've inserted that here, because that's where I am right now.  In the midst.

Last Saturday my grandmother was admitted to the hospital with what I thought at the time were some minor issues.  Unfortunately, what we thought was minor has turned out not to be.  

when Reese was born, October 2008

Her kidneys and liver aren't functioning as they should, and Tuesday night she stopped breathing.  It's been a long week, y'all.  Long and hard and exhausting in ways I didn't know possible.  I've cried more tears than I knew I had.  And that's saying A LOT because I can cry with the best of them.

I'm just sad.  But I'm also prayerful and not giving up hope.

And in the midst of all the uncertainty I've seen God's hand. In my sweet friends at work {who I literally would not have made it without}, in my third grade babies {who have been full of hugs and kisses and i love you's}, and from my husband.  Seriously, that guy.  I'm blessed. And next weekend --in seven short days-- my favorite cousin is saying I DO.  We are seven years apart, almost to the day, and I love her like a sister.

And also, in the midst of it all, there's the humor of a four year old.  I'm so thankful for his little four year old self.  He's prayed for Granny every night.  And he is really concerned about who is watering Granny and Papa's tomatoes while she is in the hospital.

And also, he tried to capitalize on my weary mind by telling his Daddy he was having a school party today and needed fruit snacks.  And so Lofton asked me about the party, and I really thought maybe in my dazed state I had forgotten.  Umm no.  There was no party that treats needed to be brought for.  He made it up.  This kid, I tell you.  He is a giant mess.